The fight…

The Dream:

Sitting at a table, teaching my toddler to read and write while eating a snack, drinking some milk and singing songs…all while nursing the baby in real clothes with hair and makeup done and shoes on.  The laundry is tumbling in the dryer and will shortly be folded and put away, the kitchen is clean, dishes are done, vacuuming is complete and the house smells amazing from dinner already cooking.  The toddler is not screaming or hitting or peeing on the floor or smelling funny…the baby is in the cleanest, driest diaper and not smelling funny.  We are waiting at home for the husband so we can eat a hot, home-cooked meal together, as a family.  I clean up, he relaxes, kids go to bed without whining or crying and then he and I have a wonderful night together.

The Reality:

Sitting on the carpet, trying to engage my toddler with songs and his abcs while he spills his milk and wipes his fingers on my shirt…the baby is laughing to herself on the floor next to us and while overdue for a feeding and a change, she is still in good spirits.  The toddler decides today he is boycotting potty training and is secretly laughing at me every chance he gets.  The laundry in the dryer is being “fluffed” for another cycle and the dishes are in the dishwasher but the kitchen is no where near presentable.  Dinner may get made or it may be cereal.  I doubt the toddler will get a bath before bed tonight because, well, some nights it just isn’t worth the fight.  The husband gets home and while I always have good intentions of looking nice and meeting him at the door, I can count on one hand how many times that has happened.

Not the dream.  Don’t get me wrong – I love my life, but my life is not this dream.  Not this false reality so many of us have in our minds when we get married and start a family.  Here is the deal.  Life is hard.

Let me say it again, life is hard.  But you know what makes it worth it?  The marriage and the kids.  So what if my kitchen isn’t clean.  So what if my kids’s clothes are a bit wrinkled right now.  I’m at a point in life where what happens with my kids and husband today is more important than if my house is picked up.  Life is about moments.  Life is about taking the hard and making it worth the fight. Life is about the small hands around your neck and whisper of “I wub you, Mommy”, the look up while nursing – knowing you are the only one that can give her what she needs, the touch of your partner after a long day for you both – connecting two exhausted hearts.

I am working towards a balanced life…scratch that.  I am fighting towards it.  I am fighting to be able to balance wife, mom, small-business owner, housekeeper, chef, etc.  I see a vision of myself that I cannot wait to have as my reality.  Each day I get closer and closer (although today I feel like I took 12 steps backwards).  I will be my best me and my family will be better for the work and sacrifice I put in for it.  We will all benefit, we will all be our best…we will all be potty trained.

be a fighter.

xoxo

why would you not want to pee in the potty…and other thoughts of the day

I am in day one of my three day potty training and I am starting to question myself as a patient parent.  One of the keys to this system is, well, patience…so you can guess how my day is going.  I don’t know how many times I have asked myself, “why wouldn’t he want to pee in the potty?  How can peeing in underwear be comfortable or more exciting than the potty?”  Then I realize I have 32 years of experience on this little dude and it makes it better, for the moment.  This three day system by Lora Jensen is pretty awesome, from what I have heard.  Some kids pick it up very quickly and some not until day 3.  I’m thinking we will be on the day 2-3 train seeing as how it is already 2p and we haven’t mastered it yet today.

I have made a chart for the wall in the kitchen because I was struggling with what rewards to give.  I had a couple but the little man has already figured me out.  Oh, all I have to do is sit on the potty and I get something?  Sweet.  I’ll go potty all day, then.  As I adjusted his expectations of the rewards to only be when his pants are dry and he goes in the potty…he became way less interested.

Today is the day I decided I want to get rid of my carpet…

So we will see how tomorrow goes.  I will be hoping and praying and patient with my adorable little man, knowing that he won’t always want to just pee in his pants.

Other thoughts for the day:

Why do I keep smelling syrup?  Oh, that’s right.  I’m using Fenugreek for my milk supply and it makes me smell like syrup.  seriously. I want pancakes

How can I set up my office space, rearrange my house, do the laundry, do the dishes, feed the baby and get the little man on the toilet?  Oh, apparently I can’t.  Messy and disorganized house it is…for now.

What is for dinner?  pancakes sound good.

I need to shower…because I am now fearful I not only smell like syrup, but that I may smell like syrup and pee.

I have two deliveries coming today that cannot get here fast enough.  One for Little Man and one for me.

This little man is the coolest kid I know.  hands down cool.  Even if he pees his pants.

potty training

I belong. You do, too.

Let’s get real for a minute, shall we? I’ve been completely off the blog grid for over a year now and wow, do I miss it. I am an introvert and I have a difficult time talking to people…but I can write to people and I can find comfort in sharing my experience with others. This blog is still serving its original purpose – to document our journey of being a healthy and happy home through learning, laughter and love but I will be adding in different pieces. I have decided to give us a facelift and I will be working on it – so be kind through the construction.

Today I felt the push to write again, so let’s catch up. The past year has brought us a pregnancy and healthy baby girl, Elisabeth. We are now complete as a family of four. Our real food kitchen got thrown out the window during the pregnancy due to every excuse in the book. The second time around life is so different. I could no longer just sit and stroke my belly, wondering what that baby would look like. Instead, I would pray at night she wouldn’t be disfigured from her brother climbing and crawling and needing to be held right on top of her.

If you remember from back in January 2014, I began using essential oils in our home. Wow. Can I just say WOW. What a decision that was. God had his hand in that one 100% and the journey I have been on this past year has been one for the books. Not only did we begin using the oils but I started sharing about them. Long story short, I have been able to make my dreams come true with these oils. January 16, 2015, was my last day of work at ASU and I am now a full-time, work at home mom.

So let’s back up a bit. I know what you are thinking. There is no way essential oils have gotten you to where you are. Let me tell you…. It isn’t the oils. It is the team. I have been so blessed to be a part of the Lemon Droppers within Young Living. Again, God was watching over me because while I was about to order my starter kit through a random person, He had my dear friend reach out to me and share her new journey with me….and so it began. I was guided to the Lemon Droppers and I will not look back. We are led by a woman who has a heart bigger than any I have encountered and a work ethic to match. She throws blood, sweat and tears into creating this career for us, to give us the materials and support we need. Incredible. The talent Lindsay possesses is one I can only imagine. So, yes, essential oils have a part in getting me where I am – but the Lemon Droppers have all of the credit.

Remember above where I said I have a difficult time talking to people? Yeah – most people don’t realize how much of an introvert I am and how much I dislike conflict. I can force myself, in the necessary situations, to do what needs to be done…but at the end of the day, I like my small support system of my family to help me recharge. It is amazing to me how day by day the small support system of my family is growing. This team, this dream, this amazingness called the Lemon Droppers have become my family. I am a Lemon Dropper. I believe in this team and I have their back and I know they all have mine. I have gotten such encouragement from so many to help me gently get out of my comfort zone and reach for my dreams. I find myself being so thankful, daily, for each of them. The funny thing? I have not met 99% of them in person (but I cannot wait for the day I am able to)! We all share, we all believe, we all belong. This is what this life is about…being my best me. Each and every day I am able to wake up, live my dream and keep working to be my best me all while belonging to a piece of history, amazing history. “The Lemon Droppers is the place for everybody else. We’re more than just a business. We are a tribe, a clan, a family”. We are all a part of this. We are in this together and she inspired me to get back to this blog and write. Not think, just do. Stop questioning every single thing I do and just do it.

So as I get back into it – know there is a lot coming at you. I will continue to document the journey of my family but I will also be sharing my story, my life, my growth and my dreams. I will be sharing my inspirations, my goals, my fears, my failures and my learnings. I am daring greatly to allow myself to be vulnerable – because without vulnerability, I cannot grow. Without personal accountability, I cannot learn. Without honesty I cannot laugh and live. So here I am. Vulnerable, honest, scared, accountable and so ready to face the next challenge and fight for my life – the life I want.

 “Being a Lemon Dropper means being the best version of you”.  I belong. You do, too.

xoxo

Jb

*all quoted statements from Lindsay Teague Moreno and team

A few of my favorites….

As you know I’ve been dabbling in the real food kitchen and really trying to overhaul our health.  I have gotten sidetracked the past couple weeks but am committed to get back on track.  In order to do that, I have compiled a list of six of my favorite blog posts that really got me started in real food/health overhaul.

http://www.homemademommy.net/2012/09/real-food-survival-guide-for-working-moms.html

http://julesfuel.com/2013/06/23/is-leaky-gut-actually-the-root-cause-of-your-health-problems/

http://www.healyrealfoodvegetarian.com/real-food-basics-9-steps-to-real-food-for-beginners/

http://www.foodrenegade.com/why-butter-health-food/

http://www.cheeseslave.com/kombucha-health-benefits/

I also have some blogs that I frequent weekly for meal ideas.  These are lifesaver sites and I am so very thankful for them!

http://theelliotthomestead.com/

http://www.weedemandreap.com/

http://livesimply.me/

http://www.cheeseslave.com/

I’m in the process of compiling a list of my favorite go-to recipes, as well.  Stay tuned for that blog post!

Cue Takeout

I’ve been dabbling in the real food kitchen for a while now and am so ready to take the full plunge.  I have been doing certain things here and there and they have now become staples in the house – but the other staples haven’t quite left…the bags of chips, specifically.  As a working mom to a 13 month old, life is hectic and time is not my friend.  I prep on the weekends for the week but come the weeknight, I am tired and exhausted and just want to have something ready to go (cue takeout).  So the weekend prep has turned in to strictly breakfast and lunch for my husband and me throughout the week and much less about the entire week of food prep.  That is my main focus to change right now.  If I can get back to planning out all meals, including dinners, with an extra hour of work on the weekends my week will be healthier, cheaper and more in line with the goal I have for us.  This is my public declaration that I will begin posting weekly meal plans to not only help you out, but the keep myself in line and on point.

Here is a quick run-down of what I am doing during this transition phase:

  • Weekly soaked bread for the family to eat
  • Weekly kombucha for the family to drink (although I am the only one drinking it at the moment)
  • Raw cheese
  • Organic, pasteurized milk from grass-fed cows (not the best option, but the best option for us right now)
  • Grass-fed beef
  • Weekly roasted organic whole chicken for weekly meals and weekly bone broth (see picture
  • Sprouting wheat berries for sprouted flour
  • Homemade gummies for healthy snacks

What still needs to get worked through for this transition to be complete (not a complete list):

  • Trips to the inside aisles of the grocery store for chips, cookies, donuts, etc.  
  • Not soaking or sprouting my quinoa or rice
  • I want to start making water kefir and drinking raw milk
  • I want to start drinking my bone broth instead of just cooking with it
  • We use eating out as an option way too often
Slow Cooker Chicken Stock

Slow Cooker Chicken Bone Broth

Taking the Leap {of faith}

Making a healthy home is not easy, cheap or not stressful.  It is, however, simple and so worth it.  We have recently jumped into the world of essential oils and I must say, I am loving them!  My husband is still a bit skeptical of their ability and depth, but I have full trust in them.  I’ve researched different companies and oils and decided to jump in head first with Young Living Essential Oils.

It is so easy to be skeptical of these oils because they are not mainstream.  They aren’t used everywhere, it seems expensive and it seems a very “hippie” thing to do.  We are not rich and we are not hippies, but I know this is right for us.  My gut, my faith, tells me that this is exactly what we need to be doing for our home right now.  This Leap of Faith is the best feeling I’ve had in a while – it combines my passion of health and wellness with my passion for my faith… what better situation is there to be in?

I am still learning all there is to know – and to be honest, there is so much information, I don’t know if I’ll ever know everything.  What I do know is I am cleaning out our medicine cabinet and replacing all the OTC meds with oils.  Think I’m crazy?  Take a look below – there is an oil for EVERYTHING!  I cannot wait to be completely med free and a whole-oil home.

There will be many posts to come about our amazing experiences with the oils and for the journey we are on.  Stay tuned and please let me know what questions you have.  I’m happy to help you learn, research and get started with the oils.

who are we?

Hi all and welcome to this journey!  The blog is intended to share the journey we are on of transforming our lives from the inside out.  We are changing our food, our workouts (well, mine… His are moving along well), our medicine and our faith.  Well – our faith is remaining where it is, but we hope to share it and live it better.

Through real food, essential oils, Bible studies, laughter and love – we will get to the life that is intended for us by God.  I hope you enjoy the ride as much as we will!